!!!!!!Let me just say I relate to a lot of what you have posted. Pluto is transiting my first house, and it has been pretty challenging. So Saturn hasn't reached my first yet, but I really understand a lot of what you said.
I have Saturn, Neptune, Venus, and Uranus in my first, so these have been hit by Pluto or eventually will be.
Issues with feelings? Yes.
I am starting to deal with things that happened years ago and finally acknowledge the pain. There are times I wonder whether I will make it to my 30th birthday, because I don't know how much left I have in me.
Changes in job? Yes.
Like you, I am teaching as part of my job, and while I am doing well at it and students love me, it isn't enough. Honestly, I want more power and money, because I'm tired of missing out on many things because I can't afford them.
Romance? Kind of.
I have had relationships. but have struggled to have a meaningful one the last few years. Maybe you can post the chart of your synastry- why is now not a good time? You will never know what can happen.
It sounds like things aren't so great with your parents- is there a way you can move out or distance yourself for a while? Maybe getting away for some perspective can help.
Help is always there if you need it- you wouldn't have posted here if you didn't want help.
So I know this wasn't what you asked, but I wanted you to know you aren't alone in these feelings. I can look at your chart later, but remember that although times can get really rough, it is preparing us to learn our lessons and move on to better places.